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Tsera's Gift

by Connie Lansberg

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1.
I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do Have to watch the garden grow Make angels in the virgin snow I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do You said goodbye, and please don’t cry you would be back tomorrow I told a lie when I said I’d try to Contain my pain and my sorrow I face the night, and I fear I might forever be alone I stare at the floor and believe I need more Than the sun and the stars and the moon I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do Have to watch the garden grow Make angels in the virgin snow I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do I waited some, my feelings numb as I let my life slip by But the midday sun, it made me come To my senses and I cried I tied my love to a blood-red balloon And released it to the sky Then I could see the fool that was me And the pain that makes me wise In the beauty of reality I see that everything is me I can never really be alone In the beauty of reality I see that everything is me There will always be better things
2.
I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do Have to watch the garden grow Make angels in the virgin snow I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do You said goodbye, Please don’t cry You would be back tomorrow I told a lie when I said I’d try to Contain my pain and my sorrow I face the night, and I fear I might forever be alone I stare at the floor And believe I need more Than the sun and the stars and the moon I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do Have to watch the garden grow Make angels in the virgin snow I can’t wait in vain for you I have better things to do I waited some, my feelings numb As I let my life slip by But the midday sun, it made me come To my senses and I cried I tied my love to a blood-red balloon And released it to the sky Then I could see the fool that was me And the pain that makes me wise In the beauty of reality, I see that everything is me I can never really be alone In the beauty of reality, I see that everything is me There will always be Better Things
3.
This is not a song for you not for you not unless you're deep dark down & blue These are not the words for you not for you not unless you've lost your own way too Please don't sing with me if you are young and free and you can hear the notes in other than a minor key I am often stifled by the smallness of my voice I long to rant & rave misbehave, I long to let it out But I don't know how or what to do I can only see the deep dark down & blue This I must confess to you I love all things deep dark & blue the sea, the sky, my lover’s eyes bluebirds, bluebells & the blue inside
4.
This is not a song for you not for you not unless you're deep dark down & blue These are not the words for you not for you not unless you've lost your own way too Please don't sing with me if you are young and free and you can hear the notes in other than a minor key I am often stifled by the smallness of my voice I want to rant & rave misbehave, I long to let it out But I don't know how or what to do I can only see the deep dark down & blue This I must confess to you I love all things deep dark & blue the sea, the sky my lover’s eyes bluebirds, bluebells & the blue inside
5.
I see you coming down from the mountaintop And I see things inside you that you cannot Come be with me, believe in me I want to show you things that you have never seen I see you coming down from the mountaintop, And I see things around you that you cannot Come take my hand. It’s time to explore Please understand that I can show you more I see a brighter sun. I see a bluer sky I see a greener tree. I see you and me You’re the sun in my life, you shine on me When my world is dark and I’m afraid and lonely You show me what love’s supposed to be You kiss my soul, communicate with me I see a brighter sun. I see a bluer sky I see a greener tree. I see you and me
6.
I see you coming down from the mountaintop And I see things inside you that you cannot Come be with me, believe in me I want to show you things that you have never seen I see you coming down from the mountaintop, And I see things around you that you cannot Come take my hand. It’s time to explore Please understand that I can show you more I see a brighter sun. I see a bluer sky I see a greener tree. I see you and me You’re the sun in my life, you shine on me When my world is dark and I’m afraid and lonely You show me what love’s supposed to be You kiss my soul, communicate with me I see a brighter sun. I see a bluer sky I see a greener tree. I see you and me
7.
My devastation is a revelation. I didn’t expect this kind of pain It’s quite a new sensation Thought I could get through anything Well I don’t feel bitter, twisted, or hurt But a howl of frustration lurks And it’s threatening to tear me to pieces Still, but no peace for me My delusion is a blanket, soft, worn yet still warm But no warning as it falls around me I look around me, it surrounds me Well, even a whisper could kill my resolve To involve myself in living again My emergence from delusion Is an emergency of some urgency. So here I stand still, more still, most still Waiting for my will to go on So here I stand still, more still, most still I don’t even know what went wrong And now I’m falling falling, falling, falling Falling, falling down I’m falling falling, falling, falling Falling, falling down And I find myself still breathing I find myself brilliant Such a breathtaking anomaly To the anatomy of my pain
8.
My devastation is a revelation I didn’t expect this kind of pain It’s quite a new sensation Thought I could get through anything Well, I don’t feel bitter, twisted, or hurt But a howl of frustration lurks And it’s threatening to tear me to pieces Still, but no peace for me My delusion is a blanket, soft, worn yet still warm But no warning as it falls around me I look around me, it surrounds me Well, even a whisper could kill my resolve To involve myself in living again My emergence from delusion Is an emergency of some urgency So here I stand still, more still, most still Waiting for my will to go on So here I stand still, more still, most still I don’t even know what went wrong And now I’m falling falling, falling, falling Falling, falling down I’m falling falling, falling, falling Falling, falling down And I find myself still breathing I find myself brilliant Such a breathtaking anomaly To the anatomy of my pain
9.
You live in a garden lost among your wants and weeds Secretive and lonely, gathering your un-met needs But you can’t see beyond the garden gate That the sky is blue and there is one who waits To love you only I live in a garden tended by angel tears Desire runs wild, makes my love crystal clear Come a little closer, I am all that I appear. Leave behind neglect, the rain’ll wash away your tears I’m going love, love, love you So watcha’ gonna do You’re gonna make the Angels cry, Tears fall from the sky, Down, down, down into the rocky ground They’re gonna make the flowers grow Then you’re gonna know How much I love, love, love you So what’cha gonna do yeah Watcha gonna do Watcha gonna do Watcha gonna do yeah Down down down into the rocky ground
10.
You live in a garden lost among your wants and weeds Secretive and lonely, gathering your un-met needs But you can’t see beyond the garden gate That the sky is blue and there is one who waits To love you only I live in a garden tended by angel tears Desire runs wild, makes my love crystal clear Come a little closer, I am all that I appear Leave behind neglect, the rain’ll wash away your tears I’m going love, love, love you So watcha’ gonna do You’re gonna make the Angels cry Tears fall from the sky Down, down, down into the rocky ground They’re gonna make the flowers grow Then you’re gonna know How much I love, love, love you So what’cha gonna do yeah Watcha gonna do Watcha gonna do Watcha gonna do yeah Down down down into the rocky ground
11.
We need a brand new story And this time we do not fall from grace We are not banished from the garden Naked and in disgrace In our new story, we are kings and queens And we finally know what being human means I want to love you in a different way And I don’t care what other people say If it doesn’t hurt, then it can’t be real You know that isn’t how I feel You must know that I can take You as you are, without a break The pain you think that you can’t handle I hold it up to a lighted candle And I will bathe your body In a love so bright and strong And I will burn you with that love Until your pain is gone. I cry tears from deep inside Free from judgment and full of pride Release your pain, release your fear I cry for you my perfect tears But you, my love, must let me see The awful things that you can be. I’ll bring them close and wash them clean And show you what they really mean That you are part of the human race And all emotion has its place My love for you is so immense You’re now restored to innocence
12.
We need a brand-new story And this time we do not fall from grace We are not banished from the garden Naked and in disgrace In our new story, we are kings and queens And we finally know what being human means I want to love you in a different way And I don’t care what other people say If it doesn’t hurt, then it can’t be real You know that isn’t how I feel You must know that I can take You as you are, without a break The pain you think that you can’t handle I hold it up to a lighted candle And I will bathe your body In a love so bright and strong And I will burn you with that love Until your pain is gone. I cry tears from deep inside Free from judgment and full of pride Release your pain, release your fear I cry for you my perfect tears But you, my love, must let me see The awful things that you can be. I’ll bring them close and wash them clean And show you what they really mean That you are part of the human race And all emotion has its place My love for you is so immense You’re now restored to innocence
13.
I believed in fairytales And the good guy always wins And I believed that I was good And that God would forgive my sin But my life had its own life, Led me into the unknown And love forgot to meet me there so now I am alone I knew where I was going until I reached the end Then I found that I was lost And had to begin again In a maze, in a maze In a maze of lonely passion Passion known and passion spent In a maze of lonely passion I lost my innocence Tell me what I’m longing for What do I wish for now And does the longing ever stop and when and where and how I know what being alone is and living without love My memories are burning low and their warmth is not enough I knew where I was going until I reached the end Then I found that I was lost And had to begin again In a maze, in a maze In a maze of lonely passion Passion known and passion spent In a maze of lonely passion I lost my innocence
14.
I believed in fairytales and the good guy always wins And I believed that I was good And that God would forgive my sin But my life had its own life, Led me into the unknown And love forgot to meet me there so now I am alone I knew where I was going until I reached the end T hen I found that I was lost and had to begin again In a maze, in a maze, in a maze of lonely passion Passion known and passion spent In a maze of lonely passion I lost my innocence Tell me what I’m longing for What do I wish for now And does the longing ever stop and when and where and how I know what being alone is and living without love My memories are burning low and their warmth is not enough I knew where I was going until I reached the end Then I found that I was lost and had to begin again In a maze, in a maze In a maze of lonely passion Passion known and passion spent In a maze of lonely passion I lost my innocence
15.
When I imagine love A nd wishes coming true I imagine someone Out there just like you When I imagine love, You slowly turn to see A someone you’ve been longing for A someone just like me I see you in the distance. I run but you have gone. And I begin to doubt myself Could my heart have been so wrong When I imagine love I feel you in my arms I know my only wish will be to keep you safe from harm When I imagine love Your words are sweet and clear Every night I kiss your lips By morn you disappear I see you in the distance. I run but you have gone. And I begin to doubt myself Could my heart have been so wrong But now you’re standing here before me And I can hardly breathe Cause you’re nothing I imagined And everything I believe I’m drowning in an ocean Of secrets and emotions I don’t know how to feel Make the love inside me real ‘Cause now you’re standing here before me And I can hardly breathe Cause you’re nothing I imagined, And everything I believe.
16.
When I imagine love A nd wishes coming true I imagine someone Out there just like you When I imagine love, You slowly turn to see A someone you’ve been longing for A someone just like me I see you in the distance. I run but you have gone. And I begin to doubt myself Could my heart have been so wrong When I imagine love I feel you in my arms I know my only wish will be to keep you safe from harm When I imagine love Your words are sweet and clear Every night I kiss your lips By morn you disappear I see you in the distance. I run but you have gone. And I begin to doubt myself Could my heart have been so wrong But now you’re standing here before me And I can hardly breathe Cause you’re nothing I imagined Nothing I imagined Nothing I imagined, And everything I believe
17.
Shall I let you lick the salt from my body Shall I be the one to rub salt in your wounds Shall I let you touch all my secret places Shall I slap your face by the light of the moon Harsh breath roars like the wind You want me so bad it’s like committing a sin A moment of pain is good for the soul A moment of pleasure and you’re out of control Shall I ease your pain with the pleasure at hand Shall I bite your lips till you understand Soft touch burns like a flame You’re losing your soul As you scream out my name I might let you into I might let you into I might let you into my Secret Garden I might let you into I might let you into I might let you into my Secret Garden Harsh breath roars like the wind You want me so bad it’s like committing a sin Soft touch burns like a flame You’re losing your soul As you scream out my name I might let you into I might let you into I might let you into my Secret Garden I might let you into I might let you into I might let you into my Secret Garden
18.
Shall I let you lick the salt from my body Shall I be the one to rub salt in your wounds Shall I let you touch all my secret places Shall I slap your face by the light of the moon Harsh breath, roars like the wind You want me so bad it’s like committing a sin A moment of pain is good for the soul A moment of pleasure and you’re out of control Shall I ease your pain with the pleasure at hand Shall I bite your lips till you understand Soft touch burns like a flame you’re losing your soul As you scream out my name I might let you into I might let you into I might let you into my Secret Garden. (Repeat) Harsh breath roars like the wind You want me so bad it’s like committing a sin Soft touch burns like a flame, you’re losing your soul As you scream out my name I might let you into I might let you into I might let you into my Secret Garden
19.
As a little child, I was scared of the dark As the wind grew wild and the lightning sparked I’d run so fast to my sweet mother’s arms She’d stroke my hair and calm my alarm I’d turn to her with my questioning face She’d laugh just so and tell me I was safe S o many things that I wanted to know How do the birds fly Where do the stars go? She’d say Every door has a key, every lie knows the truth Do you want reality, are waiting for the proof You got to grab that key you see And turn it with both hands You got to make it through the door Before you’ll understand The keys are the questions they cannot be hidden Like wild horses, they must be ridden They must be asked, they must be answered If you want more, you have to open the door I grew in years, but not in emotion I kept my fears and I kept my devotion to Heartache and pain right through to the end They weren’t in my interest, but they were my friends There came a time my soul was in danger She’d been asleep so long she was nearly a stranger I grabbed her hand and cried We got to run. We got to make it through the door And leave this dungeon Every door has a key, every lie knows the truth Do you want reality, are waiting for the proof You got to grab that key you see And turn it with both hands You got to make it through the door Before you’ll understand The keys are the questions they cannot be hidden Like wild horses, they must be ridden They must be asked, they must be answered If you want more, you have to open the door
20.
As a little child, I was scared of the dark As the wind grew wild and the lightning sparked I’d run so fast to my sweet mother’s arms She’d stroke my hair and calm my alarm I’d turn to her with my questioning face She’d laugh just so and tell me I was safe S o many things that I wanted to know How do the birds fly Where do the stars go? She’d say Every door has a key, every lie knows the truth Do you want reality, are waiting for the proof You got to grab that key you see And turn it with both hands You got to make it through the door Before you’ll understand The keys are the questions they cannot be hidden Like wild horses, they must be ridden They must be asked, they must be answered If you want more, you have to open the door I grew in years, but not in emotion I kept my fears and I kept my devotion to Heartache and pain right through to the end They weren’t in my interest, but they were my friends There came a time my soul was in danger She’d been asleep so long she was nearly a stranger I grabbed her hand and cried We got to run. We got to make it through the door And leave this dungeon Every door has a key, every lie knows the truth Do you want reality, are waiting for the proof You got to grab that key you see And turn it with both hands You got to make it through the door Before you’ll understand The keys are the questions they cannot be hidden Like wild horses, they must be ridden They must be asked, they must be answered If you want more, you have to open the door

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As a Transformational Entertainer™, a composer/songwriter & author, Connie Lansberg's words are tools to infuse or dislodge energy into and out of your soul blueprint. Your soul is the energy grid through which you receive Vital Force Energy.

Forgotten trauma disrupts the flow of Vital Source Energy, and we find it impossible to create the life we want. Hours and hours of meditation help, but it's hard work and takes time and commitment.

There is something easier and just as effective–songs, written by an artist whose soul gift is Divine Communication and who has healed their own trauma before writing a word.

Most artists create to heal themselves. Connie creates songs and writes books to heal you, gently. She does it with stories that engage your conscious mind while your unconscious mind can let go or receive as needed–like oil for the soul.

On the outside, she is a gigging jazz artist and published author. On the inside, she is a clear conduit for the energy you need to get started on a healing journey–a journey that is sustainable, inexpensive, and fun.

It takes six full listens to help dislodge or infuse. Listen while driving, cooking, cleaning, exercising, any time anywhere. Sing them too. Every song comes with a backing track so you can use your voice to enhance the healing.

When you sing these songs, the effect is even stronger. The backing tracks are there for you to sing, without judgment or care. Singing is self-healing!

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released July 28, 2022

Written and performed by Connie Lansberg to accompany her first book, The Perfect Tear– the first in the Tsera's Gift fantasy series.

Produced by Peter Hodges

Mark Fitzgiboon–Piano
Double Bass is Ben Robertson
Drums are Danny Fischer

Mark Fitzgibbon is an artist of the highest degree with a career spanning more than 45 years. and many countries. (he started young!) His ability to hear the hooks and take what's in Connie's head makes them an incredible team.

Ben Robertson is a thoughtful player who is a wonderful teacher and also a sought-after contributor to many albums.

Danny Fischer was a star in Melbourne and a star in New York. He's offered his musical prowess to many artists and is one of Australia's most recorded drummers.

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